Many of you know I injured my shoulder during my yoga practice at the beginning of this year. Before that, it had been at least four months since I practiced due to procedures I had to remove basal cell carcinomas at the end of 2019 and an ankle injury that occurred earlier that summer. Needless to say, it has been a long road of healing and surrender in many ways. Yoga has helped me stay grounded, peaceful, and feeling good in my body since 2005. To say I have missed not being able to move and stretch in that way for over a year, especially during this pandemic, would be a huge understatement.
Having been a massage therapist for over 15 years, I knew I had to allow my shoulder plenty of time to heal before rolling out my yoga mat again. I did not want to risk injuring it further. Despite consistently working on the trigger points in my shoulder muscles, it has taken a lot longer to heal than I anticipated. Recently, the Universe brought two skilled healers into my life: an amazing holistic chiropractor and an incredibly intuitive acupuncturist. With their help, my shoulder is back to at least 80% strength and range of motion. For that, I am truly grateful.
With this accelerated healing, I noticed my body craving more than just the simple stretches prior to my daily walk. I felt confident I could do a toned-down version of my yoga routine as long as I was careful and listened to what my body was telling me. One rainy, chilly day this week, my schedule miraculously opened up giving me an entire afternoon free. It was the perfect opportunity to roll out my yoga mat and give it a try, yet I noticed a surprising amount of resistance to doing it. After lunch, I found an assortment of other tasks to do, including opening a pile of mail that had been sitting on my desk for days. Why was I resisting something I knew would help me feel better?
Rather than beat myself up, I simply observed what was happening. Then I imagined how I would feel if I didn’t practice that day, knowing I had no rational excuse not to. That thought did not feel peaceful, so I lit a candle, selected one of my favorite yoga playlists on iTunes, cleared a space on the floor, and unrolled my mat. As I rested in child’s pose on that aqua blue rectangle of squishy foam, the smell of whatever material they use to manufacture yoga mats filled my nose. The sound of Deva Premal chanting in Sanskrit filled my ears. Suddenly, I stretched my arms in front of my head like I hadn’t been able to do for months and began my practice. I felt like a child who had recently found a long lost favorite toy at the bottom of the toy chest. Before I knew it, an hour had passed.
Just as I expected, I had to make a few modifications and skip a few poses that my shoulder could not support. And just as I expected, it felt fantastic to get my body and energy moving again in that way. I’ll admit I was a little sore the next day, but it was definitely the good kind of sore. Muscles that had not been used in months were beginning to wake up and strengthen. What a great lesson to remain mindful, acknowledge any resistance with as little judgment as possible, ask what feels most peaceful, and then take action. This seems like a good recipe for many kinds of healing.
Is there something you know will benefit you that you are resisting? Maybe you have been curious about doing a private or group Family Constellations session. It is quite natural for there to be unconscious resistance to doing this work, but once you set your intention to do it, miraculous events unfold. I have seen it happen more times than I can count. Perhaps you have been thinking about getting some assistance through Life Coaching to navigate a current challenge. I would be honored to give you some tools and techniques to help you get to the other side where peace resides. I offer 4, 8, and 12-week packages to suit your needs and budget. For more information or to schedule a session, take the first simple step. Send me an email or visit my website.
Until next time, why not give that recipe a try? Remain mindful. Observe your resistance without judgment. Ask what feels most peaceful in the long run. Then take appropriate action.
Healing is release from the fear of waking and the substitution of the decision to wake. The decision to wake is the reflection of the will to love, since all healing involves replacing fear with love.
A Course in Miracles ~ T-8.IX.5.1-2